no title could possibly be able to describe how i feel today,
on Friday, February 27, 2009 @ 8:27 PM
. . .i can't say that i'm speechless , it's just that i can't put it in the right words .
shit my baalllls , i just wrote a whole thing and it didn't fucking save cause my computer went all ftard on me !
- don't read if you something better to do . i don't want random people telling me to stop ranting / talking shit on " the internet " .. no one asked you to read this .first of all , r i p lola carmen . .how did i know that all the stress i had this week would end up in with a big SPLAT ? ugh , this whole week , i've been SO stressed out. i haven't been doing my homework because i can't concentrate in class because i don't sleep because i get too much homework .. duhbyatffffffff . five hours of sleep a night is DEF not good .. and naps do not f'n helppp ! shoot , these bags be heavy on my eyes ..
so , she's been on my back all week ; staring at me as if i killed her friend or whatever . but the real reason's obvious . in all honesty , i hope he reads this . k so it's obvious she likes him . and frankly , i do not care . i just don't understand why she has to stare at me all the mother f'n time . & why does she have to ask MY friend how to separate him and i . bud , we're friends .. you can't make us stop talking to each other . how would you feel ? i don't even think i like him .. and even if i did , chill out .. you can't stop him from talking to whoever he wants to . daaaang .
but whatever , i hope he understood what i was tryna tell him .. we can't be friends anymore . girl , i hope you're happy now ! you can have him all to yourself , i won't be of any nuisance. k so , apparently we can't even be friends without people wanting to fucking rush me . ha , how immature can people get huh ? whatever , it's okay .. i won't talk to him anymore . i hate how he fucking left scars on me , literally ! f my smily face scars .. i guess they can be a symbol ? looks fine , but they hurt .. cool .
greatests , i don't know why you do this to yourselves . you hurt me too y'know . fuck , i am so disappointed in you . i knew once you said " what if i end up using this too " i should've taken it . can you guys fucking stop .. this is what cellphones are for , you don't even have to say anything .. don't hurt yourself .. again , you hurt me too . i know that's not what you intended to do ( to hurt me ) but i still can't believe you'd be so hypocritical about it . you cried when she did it .. and then you go doing it too . sorry , i can't talk to you guys right now .. um , just leave me be for a while i guess , til our scars heal . i can't look at you with those on you .. talk to you soon .
i hope tomorrow'll make up for all of this ..
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& I'm f'real, Monica - Nanz
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