time is gone now .
on Sunday, December 2, 2007 @ 10:06 PM
to dearest ,i know i left . that was some pussy move . i should've just stayed .. i didn't know it would just start over again . i fell into a pile of shit . i walked away from it , just to fall into a deeper pile . i really miss you . i wish i could get myself back to you . but then i'd be walking away from this pile .. what comes next ? walking back might get me back into that same pile of shit . hah , damn . i screwed up . but hey , sometimes you don't know what you got till you lose what you got .. right ? there's an urge in my heart to do whatever to get back to you . i want to get back . i need to get back . you don't know how much you actually mean to me . it was only a year , i didn't realize it either .. until now . like i said before , drama's always right beside me . i don't have a clue what to do about it . but you understood , you never kept things from me , you let me learn the hard way . i thank you for that . hiding things from me , acting like things are fine , what's that gonna do ? it's just limiting me from the truth , the truth that can fix the problem . our fights were never for sure . our fights were an excuse for us to be away from each other . i miss those days , when we would get in trouble for stupid things . when we would have pep rallies about bullying , but we still bullied each other . our school dances , our short skirts , our untucked shirts , our plagiarism . those were definately the days . i wanna relive those days . but i can't .. edit later ?
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& I'm f'real, Monica - Nanz
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